At first glance some might allege that my grades don’t look half bad. But once the obviously cheap A for German is discounted and the one for my strongest subject is also disregarded, the rest of the grades are downright horrible. I don’t think I’ve ever scored in the bottom quarter of the class for anything before yet I managed to do so for Math and my Chemistry grade is frankly even more uninspiring. Given the effort I put in after my lacklustre performance in these two subjects for CT2, I was hoping for a bigger improvement (if any).

I don’t think there’s anyone else in class who has fallen so spectacularly from what were (at the risk of fraying some nerves) rather stratospheric heights. I’ve only managed to maintain my performances in German and Physics (what else) and my Math and Chemistry grade curves resemble the path of a horizontally fired slug flying off a cliff face that suddenly comes up against a gale force hurricane.

If you’re thinking to yourself how “insensitive” I’m being for disregarding the feelings of those who fared far worse than me, please take your complaints elsewhere. I am genuinely disappointed this time, no make that resoundingly pissed with myself, and if you were to disregard the letter grades and consider the bell curve, you would understand from where I might be sourcing this angst.

Yet, the past remains unyielding and thus immaterial. That is all I can and will do to steel myself for the true task ahead. I will not waver. I will not falter. I will not stop till the obligatory foam is emanating from every orifice. (forgive the graphic descriptives, obligatory mugging statement)

P.S. If there is anyone who is really good at listening/comforting, please do extend a ear/shoulder, I could really use one/both. (oh dear I do sound desperate)

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